• Apr 19, 2023
When things occur with a future date, it can be challenging to wait. Well, “difficult” is likely missing an adjective; like “impossible”.
First date.
First Prom.
Wedding.
Divorce.
The weekend!
Time can be very cruel when we are in a hurry. It feel like time is against us; actively working to keep us from the goal. After all, there are 86,400 seconds to get through every day. That is a lot of seconds.
I think our perspective of time shifts a bit as we get older. We get surprised more easily about how fast the time went to get to the event, or how quickly the event ended. Maybe that is because there are fewer 86,400 second time blocks ahead.
My challenge with time is anxiously anticipating an event that is expected to occur in the next 12-16 weeks. Could be earlier (lower probability. Could be longer (higher probability). I am not even marking a possible date on the calendar.
I filed my legal name and gender marker change with the Texas courts this week. Well, two days ago actually. For anyone wondering, it is about 42 hours ago. That’s 2 days out of 12-16 weeks, or 84-112 days. It sounds painful.
Time teaches us patience, whether we like it or not. We can’t hurry time, and we can’t slow it down. Every second happens with ridiculous precision. With time we develop wrinkles, gray hair, other physical challenges. I remember being shocked and saddened the day I found my first gray hair. Now, it is a badge of courage. Courage to face the last 22,600 days.
Be kind with time. Budget enough to do the things you want to do. Budget time for yourself. Budget time to spend with those you love. There will never be enough in a day, nor enough in a lifetime.
Remember that every action you take - holding a hand, sharing a hug, a kiss, or being weightless on a roller coaster, once those seconds tick by, they are a memory. See you in 86,400 seconds!